A Post in Hiding The Spirit

Spirit exists in all of us (the divine, connection, instinct) and Spirituality is what you practice (repeat, habit, custom). So when you hear someone say they have spirituality or a spiritual practice; it simply may mean they are experiencing their spirit.

These last couple of months my spirit feels like I have not been paying as much attention to it. I have been observing, okay judging the mind chatter, those thoughts that say, I am not worthy, I can't, or the being hard on myself.

It has been almost three years that I retired my pink trading jacket from the New York Mercantile Exchange to follow my dharma (purpose in life, duty). I was called to travel, pilgrimage & allow myself the freedom to be "me"; the divine being that I lost track of for many years by my party & material lifestyle; which all were blessings and experiences I would never trade for anything. May I add that quitting your job with no plan seemed a bit crazy by the people that surrounded me but I knew it was what my heart & spirit needed.

I am preparing to launch my vision to help heal the universe & the beautiful beings in it. But creating this has come with lots of challenges. Twenty five years later I still carry around the pain from experiences I had from childhood and continue to relive those moments. I realized that I may have done the healing for the mental and emotional bodies but my spiritual and energetic bodies still needs nurture and Love. It is an ongoing journey to heal the pain but what emerges out of it is the gifts to share with others; we are never alone in any given experience.

Through the practice of Yoga I learn to connect my mind, body and spirit and breathe energy into the places that have been sleeping. I continue to awaken and find that I am limitless and forever grateful to the pain that brings me this incredible strength.

Balancing Distractions

Life is not happening "to us", life brings us what we invite into it.

The purging began last Thursday with the physical body. It was different than being sick as it felt like something was being released that was no longer needed so that my spirit had bigger space to live.

Hours later, my phone & computer both shut down, I have no landline but I did have an old desktop so I plugged it in. Low and behold, I was unable to get onto any of my email accounts or websites, I already had begun to feel calmer than usual.

I witnessed what I had invited in and went about evening and days to come. Three days later I got a new phone and my computer has a mechanical problem but has turned back on and is very slow.

At this juncture I have opted not to put emails back on my phone. I really did not know the impact of the constant pull to my blackberry. I feel less disturbed, slowed down

and more at ease. I love all the technology we have and appreciate it very much, I have found new ways to add it into my life and not let my life be run by them.

As my Yoga practice on the mat is beginning to parallel my Yoga practice off the mat, like the matching of my inside and outside. I am reminded how great my life is, with all the things that come my way, I choose to continue to see the choices I make and how they affect all beings/things.

There is a quote that I have been hearing for a couple of years now, I can hear something over and over intellectually but until I experience it I will not get it. Here is one I truly Love, Honor & Live:

"Practice, Practice, Practice and all is coming."
-Pattabhi Jois